Please PLEASE, Dr. OZ. Help me!
I feel like I’m bordering on pathological fear and it seems to be getting a bigger hold on my life. My physical symptoms are progressing and I want my life back. How ever do I make this happen?
I’ve had test after test, including an angiogram. Now my doctor wants me to have an MRI/MRA. At this point, I think the basis of my physical ailments are fear about my health – and in some ways, for valid reasons. I feel desperate – that I’m a time bomb in a race to find an answer before I have a stroke!
My blood pressure spikes are causing more consistent symptoms – the stinging pain in the top of my head, a droopy sensation at the temple corner of my left eye, and a stinging numbish sensation at the left corner of my mouth. These areas don’t look any different – but they feel very different while my blood pressure is high. They are new symptoms. As is a periodic discomfort in my left eye. I was checked by an ophthalmologist at Devers Eye Clinic yesterday and he said my eyes are in excellent condition. My eye feels slightly irritated and sometimes has a few seconds of feeling like it does when I have the flu.
My blood pressure normally runs great – 111-low 120’s/low 60s and on the low side in the night and mornings. My pulse is usually in the low 50s (I don’t feel well when it’s in the low 50’s) to high 50s in the morning so I usually take my morning dose of Metoprolol 25 mg at 10:30-11 am rather than when I should be taking it at 9 a. My blood pressure is usually in the mid to high 120’s when I take my 9 pm dose. When I try to go below this, I have a lot of palpitations/skipped beats. My blood pressure has been up very high (190s-212/low 100s) at least 10 times this year – an unusual event for me. The first few times happened in the night – woke me up. No one has been able to figure a cause other than sleep apnea. My symptoms include those of sleep apnea I’m told – and from what I’ve researched. It’s so difficult to be who I am with so little sleep. I have no problems for a period of time and just getting comfortable with my body’s behavior and then it happens again. I manage my blood pressure spikes with meditation and Lisinopril if it doesn’t come down with deep breathing and relaxation visualization. I’ve been seen several times in the ER, admitted 3 times, had an angiogram as well as 24 hour catecholamine and many other tests. Everything has been normal. I have great doctors and they have deduced that I have sleep apena which is causing the blood pressure spikes, severe lack of sleep and anxiety.
I had a sleep lab study but couldn’t sleep enough to get a good report but did show hypopnea. My doctor then arranged for a home sleep study which I had. He told me that it showed apnea, hypopnea and very low oxygen levels which he feels awaken me. Last night I had a sleep lab titration study but again couldn’t sleep enough to get a good report. From research and a visit with a person at the sleep lab, I was told that home studies are very inaccurate. I was told by my technician at the sleep lab that I don’t have apnea at all that he could see. My doctor will have my report on Friday and I’ll ask my questions from him and find out the news. I was so excited to have the study, believing that it would resolve the blood pressure spikes issue and that I could eventually get over my distrust of my body – and my fear.
I am so stressed and exhausted with all of this and I think the stress is keeping me from sleeping. It’s a vicious cycle. That is where my fear comes in – I’m terrified that I’m bringing on the very thing I’m trying to avoid. I try every thing I can – medication regimen, meditation, read Eckhart Tolle’s books, in fact listen to them when I’m walking. And I have a glass of wine now and then…
I’m a very strong and healthy 71-year-old woman with a wonderful life otherwise. I have many reasons to live including 2 brand new great-grandchildren. I have walked 10,000+ steps (thanks to your encouragement) every day for sometime, have lost over 30 pounds, gotten off my Metformin and now manage my type 2 diabetes with diet and exercise. I’m so grateful to you and your show!
I watched your show about sleep disorders and learned a lot. I’ve had difficulties sleeping since I was a child. In fact, my Dad has told me that I had a difficult time sleeping as a baby and small child – that he used to rock and walk me half the night. I had never heard of genetic insomnia but I wonder if that describes my sleep problems. I hope we hear about her treatment. I’ve been taking occasional trazadone when I can’t sleep, anywhere from a quarter of a 50 mg tablet to the entire 50 mgs. Sometimes it doesn’t work at all. I definitely prefer natural treatments but am fearful about trying something else right now. I’m normally awake at least every 2 hours each night and routinely get 3-5 hours of sleep each night, rarely six, very rarely 7. I’m so desperate that I can’t even tell you – for sleep, peace, no anxiety, no more fear – for getting my life back.
My fear is such a problem for me that it’s interfering with my life. It’s embarrassing to admit that I’m so fearful but am deciding if I’m going to get help for it, I have to talk about it. There must be others in my situations. As soon as I receive reassurance – reading my normal labs and other reports, I feel all right for a bit and then the fear starts creeping in again. I no longer trust my body! What if my blood pressure rises again and I have a stroke. I dread night time so much – no words – what if I lie awake all night and imagine the worst – despite my best efforts. The less sleep I have, the more my emotional defenses are down. I’ve had 17 deaths of family and best friends in the last 18 years, 6 of those (my Dad, two sisters, brother-in-law, and besties) in the last 5-1/2 years. I’m still reeling from those deaths and definitely feeling my mortality. My fear is beginning to include my husband and family’s safety. It feels like fear is taking over my life. It is. I pray. I talk to my sisters and husband. I journal. I research. I exercise the power of believing…
Have I missed one of your shows that dealt with fear? Please schedule or replay?