Our life speaks to us in a whisper – what is it telling me? What will I do about it? What is it really that I’m supposed to be doing with my life? When I connect with the place of stillness at my core, what do I find I’m meant to do with my life?
What is the whisper saying to me? Paint!!!
What am I doing about it? I’m walking to my easel, picking up my brush and staring at my partially completed canvas…
Why my struggle when I so NEED to paint? I know my need to paint is to express myself. I’m constantly painting in my head. Is it enough to create in my head? Is that expression enough? The joy of creating? In my head? I enjoy that a lot but I think if I pass on my opportunity to express my ideas on canvas, I’ll regret it. In fact, I know that for sure.
I go to my easel and can’t figure out exactly how to proceed…where I want to go with my painting at this point…feeling somewhat unfocused, a bit disconnected and lost. I go through the motions. I stand there for a time, mix my paints, study my canvas and then leave. I’m looking for a distraction.
I’ve felt like I’m in a transition of style and change. I have been thinking it’s temporary – for a long time. But…
Is this a metaphor for my life? How do I separate my art, who I am, from any other part of my life? No – it’s not a metaphor. It IS my life. Whoa! Woops…I really mean GO!
I will no longer go through the motions. I will live a meaningful life that makes a difference. Going through the motions doesn’t cut it!
I’m very aware this morning that I need to move – take action. Just show up. Take time for me.
Up and at it. Quit thinking. Allow no distractions. Move my hand and it will happen.
I’m excited! I feel joy in taking action, joy in my art! And life!